This one is a little profane...I'm from the "hood." Lol. So I guess it's back to my roots.
Why is love so hard? Is it because it faces us to face a truth within ourselves? How many times have you been in love, or even thought you were and realized it wasn't so? We've all been there, and if you haven't you will. Why is it so hard to let go? It's like BoysIIMen said, we don't wanna say goodbye to yesterday. Yesterday is so familiar. We think we know yesterday. You don't know yesterday until you see it from tomorrow. I try to stay so positive among the negative aspects of life. Yea u see me smiling, but sometimes I feel like I'm dieing inside. But if I hold my smile, maybe, just maybe it'll inspire someone else to do the same. If I can brighten one person's day, even if I'm on my worst, then it's worth it. What's a smile worth? It's not gold, it's not money, it's sugar (yes on my tongue.Lol.) I'm about spreading the love that can't hurt anyone. My smile won't hurt u, unless I say some messed up shit after and you hear about it. Lol, but that ain't me. I'll say fucked up shit to your face. Honesty isn't hard. I think love is hard because I expect too much from it. I expect it to make me whole, and while it helps a person develop that sense of completion it's then your responsibility to fine tune and shape that shit into a definite form. It's like this...when I'm feeling someone on the real I gotta have em. Even if it's just for the moment, I want them, every inch, every thought. People just got their walls built up to keep invaders out. How you gonna not let a nigga' in the drawbriddge before asking me what I'm about. I'm not about just hooking up. I'm not about breaking couples up. (but it happens.) I ain't about lies or leading nobody on. You can't front when someone's got u open. I'm about getting to know somebody. I want your fears, tears, hopes, and dreams. Maybe u don't wanna be reminded of those things. I'm sorry for bringing it up, but damn. (Who am I talking to? Crazy self.) "I'm real. I'm honesty. I'm loving me for me." X-lyrics modified. I ain't about plaigarism, lol. But peep this, I am about a feeling. I'm about that whisper in your ear. I'm about falling in love with love and letting it run it's course. While sometimes it gets derailed, they'll always be another train. Like clockwork life hands you opportunity, u just gotta be a grown up and board. I don't wanna see no more tears and hiding from your fears. If you're not where u wanna be now, you'll get there. Just keep struggling and fight each day back. I think before I can ever love someone else, I gotta love me and that means all of me. Not just my jokes or my looks. Not just my smarts and them books. I gotta love the natural me that thrives on instinct and intuition. So I guess what I'm saying is...Why is love so hard? Because we make it that way. If it were any other way it wouldn't be worth it.
To all my homies and homegirls in the struggle. Keep ya head up. You'll find that somebody. Theere's an Angel up there keeping love alive. A, I miss you.
-Nova Out
